Don't.

Don't you worry your pretty little head about all the things I said,
don't let it penetrate your soul,
Don't let it fill your mind with thoughts,
Just swim in the shallows, there where you're safe,
don't allow me to taint you with my reality,
don't let me come in,

I know how to live in the darkness,
I've been here many times before,
I know who I am,
nothing you can say, will change me,
I will always continue to feel everything all the way into my bones,
I will always burn for something that does not exist here,

I will keep living alongside you to make you feel better,
I will be the antidote to your fears,
keeping me there for whenever you need a dose,
I know when I'm only being used,
I am constantly left unfulfilled,

while I keep filling you up with all I have,
leave me with the scraps of your concerns,
disrespect me wherever you go,
as long as I don't know, it's alright, right?!!
I'll just take a bite of my anger and chew it slowly,
Let the bitter, burning taste fill me up,
As long as you're happy,

I don't care what you think of me,
don't worry about how I feel today,
tomorrow I will be okay,
Go ahead and walk away,
stay with the hollow smiles,
those you so admire,
Inside I am still bruised.

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